So when seeking beauty, I tried to make myself beautiful outside God’s methods. I tried to be beautiful outwardly. I worked so hard to lose weigh, only to put on more weight after a few months. I tried being another person, to be ” sexy”, and of course it did not work. I tried all I could, until God showed me that I was beautiful because He made me. He told me that I was beautiful as I was. Of course, there are lot of things I need to change, but still who I am is beautiful. If someone does not see that beauty in me, well they need to learn to see well. And when I don’t see beauty where God sees it, I need some eyewash.
I won’t lie. I am not completely healed yet, but I am on the right path, dealing with what is inside, knowing it is where true beauty lies. And guess what, when you stop reveling in food to cope with the world, you lose weight for good. When you understand your worth in Christ, well you do not need to seek it elsewhere, and you can blossom.
Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious. (1 Peter 3:3-4)
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. (2 Corinthians 4:16)