Nevertheless, many even of the authorities believed in him, but for fear of the Pharisees they did not confess it, so that they would not be put out of the synagogue; for they loved the glory that comes from man more than the glory that comes from God. (John 12:42-43 ESV)

They loved the glory that comes from man more than the glory that comes from God because they did not want to be put out of the synagogue. Being put out of the synagogue meant rejection, shame, embarrassment, loss of social status, etc. and they were not willing to endure that. Oh, I understand how they felt.  I am tempted every day to choose  the glory that comes from man.

Will I be willing, today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, etc. to be without friends at work, to be without church or to lose the consideration of my “spiritual family”, to be despised by the non-believers around me (siblings, friends, neighbors, coworkers, etc.) for the sake of Christ? Am I going to open my Bible on the bus, subway, train, even if it means being laughed at? Am I going to seek the glory that comes from God even if it means that I will have none on this earth?

Every day, you and I  must make a choice. Let the following words of Christ help us make the right one: Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. (John 12:25 ESV)


Today (or yesterday), I read the end of Revelation. It is glorious! It gives me deeper convictions about living my life for and with God.  I want to glorify him. I want to be in the winning side. I am amazed by Him. I want to know Him more.

However, today was a day of failures. I did not reach the goal. I didn’t keep my promise about that aspect of my character that needs to change. I spent too much time trying to prove that I am worth it. I too much time looking for approval and praise. And I don’t want to face God. But I need to.

I need His grace and love. I need Him to change me. I am so powerless.

I need him to remember that tomorrow he will till be there to help me. I ned His still small voice because He is my Lord and my saviour.

The glory is His

Not to us, Lord, not to us but to your name be the glory, because of your love and faithfulness.” Psalm 115:1
This is the cry of my heart this sunday. 
I have struggled all this week with the desire of being loved, admired, in one word, glorified. I thought of the many ways I can prove to all those who don’t like me how wrong they are. I thought of many ways to vindicate myself. I thought of how to be “the star”. God’s answer was “the glory is mine“. Then I wanted to know why He wanted all the glory for Himself. His answer is surprising. He could have said: ” because I am God” and I would have nothing to add even if I would have been frustrated.
However because God loves me and wants a relationship with me, He told me “because of my love and faithfulness” I can’t argue with that. His faithfulness, His mercy, His grace, and His love are more than amazing. There is no word to describe them. There is no word to describe the Lord’s heart. 
In His great love, Jesus added: “There is a glory for you. It is from my father and yours. Just follow me and rememberI do not accept glory from human beings.” John 5:41