Self-esteem (2)

Have you ever looked in the mirror and hated what you saw? Have you ever looked at your personality and wished you were different? If you are a little like me, you did. The good news for all of us who don’t like much who we are and what we see in us is that how we feel about us does not change who we are. We are people created according to a plan and a purpose.  We are not accidents. Who we are did not come about by chance. True, we live in a fallen word and our sins disfigure the perfect workmanship of God that we are.However, that does not change who made us, how and why. Created in God’s image (Genesis 1:26), we were planned. God thought of us, of how we ought to be before our conception.

The next time you feel worthless, the next time you are treated like the bottom of the barrel and think it is normal, remember who made you. Remember that you are not a mere accident. Remember His purpose. No one will never be able to take that away from you. Remember who you look like. Remember and rejoice. Remember and give thanks.

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them. (Psalm 139:13-16)

I will say to the north, Give up, and to the south, Do not withhold; bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the end of the earth, everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.” (Isaiah 43:6-7)

For this purpose…

“And when it was day, he departed and went into a desolate place. And the people sought him and came to him, and would have kept him from leaving them,  but he said to them, “I must preach the good news of the kingdom of God to the other towns as well; for I was sent for this purpose.” And he was preaching in the synagogues of Judea.” (Luke 4:42-44)

Sometimes we can feel there is too much to do and not enough time to do it. We need to find time not only for God but also for work, friends, church, evangelization, serving and encouraging others… and we need to sleep. Sometimes  we want to choose:  maybe stop working to share more Jesus with unbelievers or meet fewer people to be able to spend quality time with God and so on.

Jesus was a very busy man, but He achieved so much more than us. He served, preached, taught, healed, resurrected, spent quality times with His friends…  John even told us that He did  so many others things that it was impossible to write all them (John 21:25). How was He able to achieve so much? Mark 1:35-38 gives us the answer.

And rising very early in the morning, while it was still dark, he departed and went out to a desolate place, and there he prayed. And Simon and those who were with him searched for him,  and they found him and said to him, “Everyone is looking for you.”  And he said to them, “Let us go on to the next towns, that I may preach there also, for that is why I came out.

Jesus had a busy evening. He healed people,  casted out many demons, handled a whole city… I guess He was tired. However, early in the morning, He went out to pray. Then when people tried to prevent Him from leaving, He said no because He had a purpose. He knew why He was there and was determined not to be distracted.

So maybe the solution to our “not enough time” is to spend time with God, to pray even if when we are tired and to know for what purpose we are on earth. Spending time with God should come before everything else. We easily forget that without Him we can do nothing (John 15:5). We easily forget that Him alone can renew our strength (Isaiah 40: 30-31). We also need to remember that He created us for good works that will glorify Him (Ephesians 2:10; Isaiah 43:7; Matthew 5:16).

So the question for each of us is: “Is your calendar  full with things that are for God’s glory?”  Let’s imitate Jesus by depending on God and by leaving for His glory.

 

My ultimate need!

Last Sunday, I wasn’t faithful. I didn’t write. I was tired physically and emotionally. I let my emotions take control of my life. 

This week was worse. I was down, emotionally. I cried a lot, complained a lot. It was so difficult to pray. My faith was buried under my emotions and my tears. I needed God. 

First, I thought I needed His blessings. I thought that I needed Him to meet my needs; and He did. He offered me things I have never prayed for because I could not think of Him giving me them. As I was praising and crying (praying was too simple), He heard me. I didn’t realize that He was listening. He seemed so far. He seemed deaf and blind. 
However He answered. He blessed me with things that I really needed. I am still mesmerized! When He says that He “is able to do  immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within usi“, Ephesians 3:20 He is not joking. He is able and He is willing to do what it takes to meet our needs.

So my needs (at least a part of them because they are countless) were met. I should have been happy, dancing in the rain. I wasn’t. I needed more. Then I understood. He used His power to work within me. He softly spoke to me. He told me I was unhappy because I was far from Him.

He wasn’t the first anymore. I was. People were. There were a lot of barriers between Him and me : my fears, my lack of trust, my desire to be loved and approved by others and so on. He told me I needed Him. He told me that I needed to be entirely His. I needed to have an undivided devotion to Him. I needed to be able to say with Paul : “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.Philippians 1:21
Christ is my life and when I don’t live for Him, I am dying away. He is my first need and my ultimate blessing.